Thursday, April 29, 2004

....Bad bad me.. :(

Why am I reacting like this? I think Joshua is gonna hate me for the rest of his life... I feel so affected... I don't know.. Haiz.. I'm just this stupid and bad person who always does wrong things.. What a BIG mouth I have.. I regretted poking into people's things or lives.. But I'm always the curious one.. Sneaking about people's back.. Listening~ Kpo-ing... I think I should change this STUPID habit.. Damn.. I'm bad bad bad!!!!

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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

My Next Wish List Thing!

Sony CyberShot DSC-T11

Click here to see CyberShot DSC - T11


"Its the coolest thing on Earth! OMG! Gonna get it after my holiday job~ Heeh.."

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What you Eat determines What are You... "It works on me... But dunno if it works on u too! ;P"

http://media.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/1986/youarewhatyoueat.swf


Interesting Bush Shootout! "Try it! Its kinda interesting~"


http://www.miniclip.com/bushshootout.htm



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Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Gay issue

I was checking my fridae profile as usual.. and I came across this article... pretty controversal topic for all gays in Australia.. The headline goes like this ... Aussie PM supports amendment change to restrict gay marriage... According what I read, this John Howard guy disagrees in same-sex union.. BUT I immediately gloated after reading towards the end... This was what it said..

"Why should John Howard, who's a product of the 50s, be such a blight on people's happiness and their ability to see themselves as equal in the Australian society," Mr Brown said.

Added on was

"The rest of the world is moving on."

Hee... A direct hit for John Howard I guess.. GET A LIFE HOWARD! bleaHz~

Btw, John Howard is Aust's PM...

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Blog Hopping

I must really stop this! I can't continue committing into this madness.. Well, isn't exactly mad.. Its just everytime whenever I read people's entires, I would feel the same way they do... And what's mad about this? I'm referring to PEOPLE not just one! Some entries were really sad and touching, few were happy ones and some I find it confusing.. and experiencing happiness, sadness and being in a confusion state in just half an hour isn't nice thing.. My thoughts were like disoriented after reading all.. I was like.. Hey! Who was the one happy today? Is "blah blah" having PMS today? Gosh... My mind was spinning with all sorts of emotions... Imagine that! Ok... GET A GRIP JASEN!!!!

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Monday, April 26, 2004

Why Everytime...

Have been listening to Britney Spears - Everytime.. Don't know why I'm so strongly attracted to this song...
I've even watched the music video. MV was nice I should say.. Heard Britney was the producer for this MV.. Hmmz..

Here is the lyrics for Everytime.. Enjoy~

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...


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Saturday, April 24, 2004

my blog's new facelift!

spent 2hrs on this new entire blog face lift.... argh... back to revision ... tata~ (hope u guys like it!)

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unsecurity

first time feeling this way.. I don't know why.. When you know someone is after your partner, you would feel unsecure.. FOR SURE! but I trust Amos.. Maybe I just thinking too much.. Much revision still need to be done.. bye

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

hey!!! its not my day u know!

I have been practising Bstats like mad... Although I had good grades for it.. but I feel that the examination ain't gonna be easy.. haiz... hope my efforts do pay off.... I'm much worried about my OB which requires heLL lots of memorising work.. Told Amos I'm not goin for DB this sunday... revision too hectic.. can't really catch up now.. I can hardly breathe... :P shall head back to revision.. wish me luck! same goes to u guys~



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Monday, April 19, 2004

strong VS weak?

woke up at 09.36am. Bstats tutorial started at 2pm. sianz.. finished my lesson at 4pm. went dental appt to fix my internal braces. doc said my teeth are progressing well. WELL!? i dun see any improvement but compared to years back, it definitely look MUCH better... lolz.. I just realised something about myself... a bad habit perhaps? which is I tend to complain and seek too much... I should be complacent of what I'm getting.. Should I?

Btw, Amos haven't seen another side of real me... The really bad tempered Jasen! When I erupt to the hottest stage.... you wouldn't want to know what I'm gonna say~ My sister experienced it before! My sister and I fights like no one's business. I know she's stubborn and she won't give up. I'm too softhearted at times (depends on situation!) so I would "lose" out in the fight. I would keep to myself. BUT when I'm angered or pissed off on that day and my sister happens to pick me for a fight.. hahaa.. She sees my "REAL" power.. I will start crashing things, shouting like mad freak and my entire face would be red! But that rarely happens... hee..

gosh.. I think I can go on and on like I'm writing 1000 pages of a book.. but if you guys are interested in my childhood memories, do carry on reading...

Sad to say, I had a very unhappy childhood. I didn't like to smile at all. I didn't had much kindergarden friends. Most of them don't really like me. Perhaps I had this ugly and freakish face. Most of all, the boys there tend to tease me. I don't really like them too and I was often found crying aloud. Everyone would look at me and start pointing fingers at me saying "See that crybaby..", "Its him crying again!" "Only girls cry... HAHA!" I don't like people teasing me but I got used to it. Well, I'm actually extremely naughty child I was young. Maybe that was how my younger sister, Jasmine came about. My ah pa and ah ma thinks that a girl can tame me down a little and I guessed she really did! I tend to stick to my sister alot. I love kissing her cheeks alot! Lolz.. Most of the pictures taken were seen kissing her cheeks. My sister didn't really like me kissing her but I often do that. I remembered I kissed her so many times till she cried at my grandma's house. LOLZ.. When my sister turned 9? and I turned 10?, things started to change. My mum turned rather aggressive and started using canes to beat us. Most of the time, it was me being caned. Well, you might think this was normal and it was meant to teach me a lesson. Should I say I was abused regularly? I remembered I was beaten so severely (I had cane marks all over my body.. hands.. legs.. neck..) strips of blue black.. Even my nursery teacher complained to my dad about the serious injuries all over my body, my dad was furious and had the intention to call the police. Well, my childhood days was blur and scary. Some scars still remained.

=to be continued=

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Sunday, April 18, 2004

breeze

todae its a breezy day out at sea.. very nice to feel the breeze blowing onto your face... but while i was enjoying the breeze.. it was that stupid hock boon's loud shouting voice and the splashing seawater destroyed my little enjoyment.. i kinda enjoyed today's training session. NO SWEAT manz! weights training as usual... aching biceps as usual... wahaha.. Amos said he would be heading down to Sentosa with few of DB guys.. actually, I don't wish to let him go but I didn't want him to restrict his freedom.. anyway, he's getting older so he should enjoy more as he was saying after training... lolz.. funny manz.. the rest of afternoon was spent sleeping in air-con... n guess wat.. I drooled a BIG pile while I was having my dream (which I can't recall) AND I fell on the floor... bumps on my knees and head... oh gosh... this isn't my day .... (x.x")

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Friday, April 16, 2004

late nights, late talks

have been spending late nights recently, don't know why.. my Final Fantasy 8 habeN complete yet!! people already started playing Final Fantasy 10 like decades ago... gOsh... I'm behind time... lOlz.. I juz got my Minotaur Card back from that kid I lost to and beaten Odin, had Odin in my GF team... I'M sOoO haPpy~ but Odin like machiam disappear from the list.. Dunno why.. Squall's level is now Level 42, Rinoa Level 36 and Zell Level 34.. Zell Very ShuAi neHz.. aIyO... Gonna Shumi's Village to visit Norg's Hometown.. I kana one Si bEi Difficult-to-diE monstEr... I kept attacking attacking.. Summoning Gfz... osO nousE.. my last resorT.. MAD RUSH! oSo no usE.. KNS!! den I GAME OVER lor... thanks hor.. thE noRg lookalike monster!!!

die le.. exam ard the corner... I'm slacking away n playing final fantasy 8 .... hee... i muZ revise now... *diOngx*

weather's been mad recently.. HOT HOT HOT!!! sweating like mad... gonna take my bath now oso.....

TGIF - ThaNK God Its FridAy!!! gonna meet dardar n Jimmy for movie, Hellboy... Finally!!

mei mei jux bought a mp3 player... aiyo... ah pa so biaS!! gif her atm card to buy tat mp3 player... dun fren him le...

For Nini~

life is full of ups n downs.. I've gone thru this before.. I know this is painful for you.. As u have said, time heals.. Time DOES heals! *muacKz* LotSa hugS! chiOng together oK? aiya.. next time i intro some gUys to u lor... tao yan!!! waHaha....

crazey

its now 2.30am in da morning... so tired.. but I'm so happy.. went out wif dar dar n jimmy n jerald.. As usual, I was late for the meet... Arriving at the fountain, dar said I was late for da movie n we missed the 7o'clock movie.. I was wondering why couldn't we catch 9pm ones... dar so stupid~ lolz.. hee.. train will wait for you one la.. anyway, we had dinner at OA.. they serve really tasty spaghetti... i'm starting to like spaghetti! dunno why.. si amos la! he ate and i followed.. we R becoming the PASTA FREAKS!!! wahaha.. after we headed down to Cineleisure to catch Hellboy le.. I have done a review of Hellboy below.. I reached home abt 12.15am and had my shower n stuff done.. Amos was at msn .. den we started chatting.. teasing each other.. waHaha.. den... he said something which really touched my heart.. I wish to remember it for da rest of my life! alrighty.. its time for my sleep now .... swit dreams n nitey!!

Hellboy~

Those who likes X-men or Sci-Fi Movies may like this one. Excellent storyline. Hellboy played by Ron Perlman, a extremely cool and funny character, despite of being kept in a secret underground laboratory, he never kept himself from his crush, Liz Sherman played by Selma Blair who seemed to have difficulties controling her powers. Hellboy has duties to exterminate "strange" creatures, together with his team mate, Abe Sapien who has power to see past and future with a touch of objects. The evils wants Hellboy to regenerate the power of the Seven Gods with his right hand - which was the key to the portal for the Seven Gods. To me, the graphics was great! Thumbs up! Will Evil triumph? or Hellboy will save the day? Catch dA movie!! Its fabulous! Definitely worth my $8.50! ;P

Please gimme comments for my review.. I'm not professionally trained in writing these... lolz..


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Thursday, April 15, 2004

sianzation

woke up todae at 10am... but strangely I thought I woke up much earlier than that... aniwae... along the way to sch, i saw Alvin.. He looks erMx.. *ding dong* hEee... i dun really quite like the blue streaks he had... but as long he likes it i dun really care much la... :P he oso had contacts on... quite electrifying ma... lolx... we walked pass each other and he only realised my existence when i was beside him... *diOngx* later i got a msg from him lor... at least he got heart la... wahaha.. not like my daoz frens in secondary sch... walked pass... machiam stranger like that.. need me to walk towards them n scream along wif them.... lolx... Something abt Amos n me I have wondering abt... things are going fine between us... it's like too good to be true ba... Actually, that day I kept wondering about this when Amos was talking to me... hmmmm.... but I'm happy.... should i care that much? lolz...

FOR DOCTOR AMOS REFERENCE
Anyway, dar.. i can't make it to 80 lehx... i stop at 50.... my hands trembling now... bicep aching like mad.... sob sob.. i dun care.. tml u muz massage for me! wahaha... *peace*

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

LOTR in jUst one minute!!

taKen from http://www.worlddumbination.com/archive/blogger.htm

-----> http://mirrored.flabber.nl/lotr.gif/

LOLX..

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Monday, April 12, 2004

disappointments

Oral comm test was finally over!! but I realised I didn't prepare enough for it.. I'm disappointed though.. It did not really put me down, but instead I felt relieved it was over. Besides, I got my Business Statistics results! i got 87!! gosh.. thought I would be one of the 7 failures. I felt sorry for them though. Dawn appeared to be one of them, I wanted to console her but I was overspilled with joy and happiness.... I can't really control it.. so i decided to leave her alone for a moment...

Another disapointment came from him. I sounded this to him before but he didn't really respond. So ever since I decided to keep quiet till today I came across his profile again. I sighed. My heart went abit sour. I was trying to be sacarstic jux now towards him in MSN, but.. he took it as a joke.. Haiz.. Why am I making a FuSS ouT of it.. I should be happy that he truly loves me..

is my disappointment clouding my better judgment?

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

feeding my brain

i feel so data-fed now. All the oral communication stuffs are whirling in my brain now. Gosh.. I can't take anymore informations liaox.. gimme a break!!! ARH!

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Saturday, April 03, 2004

disoriented day

Have you wondered when your day gets disoriented and don't go your way as you want it as... Thats what happened to me today...

neverending quarrel.
rushing against time.
sucky revision.
hot weather.
backache which seemed to never go away.
a stupid assumption i made about wei chuen.
a sense of guilt for not attending DB training tomorrow.
laptop being attacked!
my conquered laptop.
besieging my laptop.
won my laptop back!
urge to hold his hands again.
miss him lots and lots!
awaiting for Good Friday's arrival!




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